I’m so lonely at the minute

and it’s stupid. Because I’m happier than I have been in a long time. I have Lee and he is amazing and wonderful and makes me so happy. I see him everyday, but when ever I’m alone I just feel like shit instantly. It doesn’t help that there’s no internet and only 4 channels in my house. I don’t understand when people say things like “I just need some me time” I never get like that. I despise being on my own and spending time on my own, it actually makes me feel ill. If it wasn’t for Lee and Bear I’d be a mess. Even now, sitting downstairs on bears sofa I feel like crap because I’m alone. I don’t understand it. It’s so much worse now everyone’s at uni because I don’t have many people I can hang out with. I miss everyone so much, I can’t believe they’re all gone. I don’t want to be left here. Seriously without Sarah BK and Lee I’d be insane.